Real World.

Reality check.

It's almost 5AM. And I have seriously been fighting with Chad since 2AM.
GOD. WHY.

I love the guy, have since fricken... 2006!
He moves to Oregon. Am I really gonna just... drop everything? Wait around for him? Not date? REALLY?
No. Of course not. But do I still love him? YES.

So much has been revealed tonight.

I was under the impression that if there was any girl for him in MN, it was ME.
What a joke.
No. He chose Kelly. She lives in Chaska. Looks like me, funnily enough.
Well, before I got cool.
Dark hair. Glasses. Adorable. FUCKING GOD.

So, I feel a little inadequate. Is that so wrong? I DON'T THINK SO.

Chad was here about a month and a half ago. Didn't even see me. Wasn't even gonna tell me he was here. I should've known then.
Why am I so stupid?

Well, fine fine fine.
He can go be with her.
I'm just gonna wallow, and I think I'm allowed to.

It's so funny, though, that so much can happen in ONE DAY.
I am extremely overwhelmed.

Apollo finally got my number.
Nick Creamier, Michael Cox, and myself are all hanging out today. (God, I should go to sleep.)
Mark is coming to Minnesota.
Audra is coming to Minnesota.
And Chad chose a girl from MN over me... who also lives in MN.

So. All of this good stuff... and I still feel like shit.

I hate how much power they have over me. Stupid. I need ice cream.